Long story short, it was swollen and continued to hurt for a few days. I finally went to the doctor yesterday and was told, "The half-marathon for which you're training? Not gonna happen any time soon." I either have a strained or torn ACL or a torn meniscus. At the least, a six to eight-week recovery.
What? From just a little slip? But, I know how bad I hurt and that something is definitely wrong.
I cried.
I am mad, upset, disappointed, defeated. I was so excited, finally felt good about where I was in my training and that I could actually complete the half-marathon. Family is coming on Thanksgiving to watch me complete my first one. And now this? Disappointment really isn't sufficient to describe what I'm feeling right now.
I know it will get better if I give it time and I am a healthy girl (thank you, Lord), so I will be able to try again. But it will be months. I will have to basically start over and that is daunting for me. I'm not a natural runner--I am slow, I have to train a lot even for just a small increase. I was doing that and now, for nothing.
But, wait, I've realized it's not for nothing. I had a revelation this week. I was depending on myself to get through the training, increase mileage, etc. I finally realized, I am not going to be able to do this without depending on God, too. I felt stupid asking Him to help me get through running a few miles...He doesn't need to waste His time on that. I felt like it was trivial. But, to Him, it's not. He hears all of our prayers no matter how trivial we think they may be. And, even in little things like this, He wants me to depend on Him, not myself.
Maybe that's my lesson. It's not solely that I complete the half-marathon on Thanksgiving Day. He was teaching me a lesson to depend on Him. And for that, I'm thankful. So, I'll try another race in 2011!!
"I can do all things THROUGH CHRIST who strengthens me."
PT: The following piece of scripture is taped to my bathroom mirror so that I can start and finish every day right. I thought it was worth sharing here with your comments above:
ReplyDeleteDo not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. -- Philippians 4:6-7
We'll keep you in our prayers.
Mark
Peyton - I'm so sorry to hear about your knee! After being a dancer for most of my life, I've had more knee troubles than you can imagine. I know both the phyiscal and emotional pain you are feeling. Take it easy... you'll be back to running in no time!
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ReplyDeleteSo sorry Pumpkin-rest, ice, elevation,
ReplyDeleteIbuprofen, and Dr. Hardy-he's a jewel-
it will be fine. Mr.Max's knee was completely
unstable after his jump and subsequent
meniscus/ACL injury-but after no weight-bearing--which meant me pulling him in his wagon for 4 months he was as good as new! If a Westie's little 3" leg can recover, so can yours! Anyway, we need you baking those red velvet chocolate-covered wonders TD instead
of running! You WILL be running again soon-
walking is a blessing too! As a matter of fact,
just having legs to stand on is a blessing!
Ouch! Hope you get better soon!
ReplyDeleteI'm SO sorry to hear about your injury, Pumpkin! These kinds of things can be impossible to understand, but I believe everything happens for a reason and God knows best. Just take good care of yourself and you'll get back on track in no time ~ xoxo V
ReplyDeleteFrom Uncle Stan....at least you did'nt sprain your jaw muscles. Now you can sit around, eat fried pies, and laugh at all the funny people running! If it makes you feel better, I fell last week on my mountain bike while going 20mph, downhill, through the woods. Landed on side of my face, (thank God for helmets)Skint legs, hip, shoulder, arm...damaged my shoulder somehow...sleeping with Dr. Ibuprofen....Good luck....Stan
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